Sunday, November 8, 2009

hmmmm awkward

hello world! so i thought it would be a good idea to call up the boy i had a date with a couple of weeks ago to hang out. I had told him that we would be better as friends but i would like to hang out again with him to get to know him better.....im now trying to figure out why. He is a terribly nice guy, but once again i ended up talking about library science crap....and it once again ended awkwardly... I think he might have thought this was a date. which is not what i intended at all. i thought since he is a 3L he would have work to do and we could hang out at bruggers and work and drink coffee and chit chat as needed. yeah that plan did not go well. he came, but did not bring stuff to work on....hes a 3L four weeks from finals, i dont get how he cant be freaking out, perhaps my view of law students is slighted because i live with pretty dedicated types, who kind of kill themselves to do well. so yeah, the whole event was a bit awkward, he also didnt eat....which was even awkwarder, i dislike being the only one eating during a meal it makes most people feel self-conscious i think, i dont really know what to do now. we are apparently very different people, with very little in common, but i keep getting the feeling that we do actually have more in common then what the surface shows. Anyways, i am once again sitting in bruggers by myself only this time i am 3 hours behind schedule because i thought it would be rude to work when he had nothing to do but talk to me.
I give up.
I am adding workaholic to the list of attributes i need my friends/significant other to possess. I cant be the only perfectionist workaholic at the table. so if any of you know of a workaholic, witty, socially awkward, confident boy with some-sort of a life ambition, give him my name, I will pry like him. it would also help if he wasnt completely unfortunate looking but then most of the people who read this have seen my ex-boyfriends so you know that there is some wiggle room in the looks department. I tend to fall in love with the unfortunate looking.

1 comment:

  1. I don't know that I would call it "wiggle room" as much as I may say that it's an open door policy. You've let some unsightly men-folk stroll through for the interview procces. You've hired two rather.... well anyway, that sems to be the least of the problems because when it comes down to it, you've got to get a hold of a better personality.
    I mean, confidence is a plus, but even a little arrogance is too much. Though, it puzzles me as they aren't the best of facial features.. ahem, or otherwise, and they seem to act as if they've got much going for them. I don't understand.
    Alright fine, i wont hate on your shitfuck ex's forever...... but I will say that you should just drop the boys for a while. You know what my gran always said to me when I would complain of how much they frustrated me? She would say "If you want love, stop looking for it" and that is completely true. when did my love pop up? Six years ago out of the forest of absurdity. Unexpectedly so, because I'd called it single/quitsies for a while.
    This law student sounds like nerd-central, so much so that he doesn't get regular old social cues.
    Don't stress over it. You'll find friends enough and boys can just sit on the wayside because you don't even have the time. There's a good point, you don't even have the time! Also, you don't know where you're going to be in a half year any how. Who knows what your future holds?
    Everyone wants love, but this is the time to be single, free and selfish! Live up your selfish life! Don't go on a date with a mediocre boy, buy chocolate and be happy knowing that you definitely came out on top with the decision to ditch human boys for something of substance.

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